Love

I felt honest is really important for me cause i felt that is a trust between any relationship no matter between family, friends, and lover, but sometimes things not going smooth as we thought and it brought disappointment though...and of course heartbreaking.. well, i been through up and down before and i always told myself not to give up, there are still plenty hopes are waiting for me, i don't know is just a words to comfort my own and make myself feel better for it. Whenever feel sad or disappointed, just go out for walk, listen music, having delicious ice cream ever or maybe cry for while to let out stress? I guess that just what i do whenever i feel down, erm...am i silly? :P


Well, there is a story i would like to share with...i knew this guy since last year September,he was amazing and one word i can describe him is "gentle" ,he seems seldom angry with me no matter what i had offend him,he seems so nice and perfect with everything. And of course, soon i fall in love with him, i like the way he are and he change me, the way how i thought and seeing things. He makes me feel different, make me feel special that someone always had the same thoughts with me. It makes me felt wanna be together with him more even is separate away, we always believe we gonna work it out no matter how hard it is.


I knew there are lots of peoples are not agree what we been doing and as my personality, honestly, i can't really care too much what peoples had thought about me or maybe us, i just care how well we get along and no matter what we been through, we always knew that we care each others and will always be there for the person whenever he or she needs. He always said our relationship is weird but special and we care each others more than anyone does. We always thought about same stuff and same situation that we gonna met,it's so weird cause i never had someone thought the same things like i do, so i guess both of us are weird,LOL :) After a while,i didn't heard from him, i was worried and thought we not gonna keep in touch anymore but when i was in disappointment, he came and talk back with me... And i found out he had faced lots of problems and bad time which i don't know anything at all,i was so worried about him and always pray that he can be happier whenever talk to me.. On that day, he told me in our last conversation....

"Just keep thinking that i don't know how i deserve you and i can't believe there is someone who can make me as happy as you especially after i lost a close friend, but you help me through it just by being here for me...and when we meet,i am gonna make it up to you by making everyday we spend together perfect and i will make sure nothing will make you unhappy while i am with you....when i went to her funeral and when i was out there all that kept me together was the thought that someone out there cared for me as much and she did....and yes is you.."



After i heard all his words, i am crying in front of the screen, ya, i know it might sound stupid for some peoples, they might think its so ridiculous to believe him over net or anything ,but honestly speaking i can't care what other people's feeling or thoughts cause i already hand my heart over to him, and i do love him so i will wait for him no matter what...cause that is how i am when i falling in love with someone when he care me as i do :) te extraño mucho mi amor <3 XXXX

Love,

yin yin
Written on May 14, 23.25pm